I met a woman… I wasn’t looking to meet a woman because I have been keeping busy so I wouldn’t think about my ex. I know that the energy I put into she and I could be use to analyze myself… my life and make some changes that were based solely on me. I’ve messed up before. Big time. I’ve cheated, built false trust, took what a woman said and abused it. Pretended I didn’t understand “her” wants/needs. I’ve played on insecurities and lowered standards…
Now, I think that all of who I was being has come back… Karma is real. When we won’t grow/change, it’s not you. We will do what it takes for the one we truly want. Unfortunately, that one for me ended up breaking me in ways I didn’t know I could be broken. I have been learning a lot. I blame no one but myself… which is hard to admit, but it’s true.
So, I was walking into a store and was caught by these beautiful eyes. I was so “star struck” that I spoke even though she wasn’t paying me any attention. She spoke back. My heart skipped. I didn’t know what to do next, so I just smiled. As I passed her, I glanced back and she was doing the same. Ladies, is this a sign? I wasn’t sure. I’m in new territory and I don’t want to step wrong. I stopped doing many of the things I am guilty of before my ex, but I’m honestly nervous that Karma isn’t finished with me yet.
I saw her again. I wasn’t looking for her, but we ran into each other again. This time she smiled and spoke first.
I’m used to expressing myself through song titles and excerpts… “Is this love, Is this love, is this love that I’m feelin? That’s all that comes to mind at the moment.
If I see her again, I say, “We have to stop running into each other.” She laughs and squints ever so slightly. Then says, “Maybe we should run into each other more often.” Then she just walks to a vehicle, unlocks the door and gets in. I’m just standing there… Eyes wide. She waves and says, “See you next time.”
What do I do?
To Be Continued…
~ Musa Simmons